5 questions to ask…

Do I have to wear makeup every day?

I cannot express this enough, makeup makes my day uncomfortable, (please bear in mind that whenever I refer to makeup, I mean a full face, but I often have In mind foundation) I have this terrible habit of touching my face *dermatologists assemble* but when I have makeup on, this means, I have a constant oops moment. Lots of smudging and staining happening. My face often feels dirty, because of the feeling that there’s something on it. I have the urge to take it off all day. And the worst thing of all is my makeup skills are borderline terrible, so why am I even doing this.

I am doing this because, my skin is filled with blackheads, uneven tone and acne scars and for some reason, I need to convince people that I don’t have any of those. Again, why? I don’t have any lasting friendships with anyone in the office, I don’t have a crush on anyone, I tend to head home straight after work, I don’t leave the office for the whole day, I see these people every day, their level of care for the condition and the look of my face is low, they’re not visibly disgusted by me, we still have to work together if they are, so why oh why do I have to put makeup. The answer is I want them to like me and I like how I look with makeup. The result: I don’t wear makeup because I don’t care whether they like me or whether I look nice. I am working for 8 hours a day in both a cold and warm office, my face can feel dry when it’s cold and clammy when it’s warm, I do not need an extra layer on my face when I am just trying to get through a working day.

Outing makeup gets the same argument from me, but I often give up and put some makeup on when it’s an uber-important because let’s look nice.

Are heels really that necessary?

So, I see someone I work with coming out of the car attempting to walk with visible discomfort on their face because of the terribly high heels they are wearing. To make matters worse, she is limping, probably because of a blister or a hurt ankle (this happens a lot to her). With my priority of comfort over style, I would have swapped the heels the moment my leg started feeling signs of a limp, but no, she’s a fighter and she soldiers on, she must look good! So, she carried this on for the whole day. Honestly go her, I am incredibly jealous because I can barely even function with flats and would rather walk around in socks and I must admit, that is how I spend half of my day at the office.

Younger me loved heels, not enough to wear for a full day every day but I loved them. I was constantly scrolling through online shops for those perfect heels, fast forward 21-year-old Osi, ‘it’s been an hour, my foot hurts, where are my flats’ Heels make your outfit look good, no one can tell me different but my feet are unusually lazy on a good day, an afternoon in town with trainers gives me a swollen foot for the next day.

I like heels, for the right time. For me, the right time is not work hours. It’s a long day and amongst the crazy things that happen in a day, I don’t need an achy foot daily. Plus, I am tall enough now to rely on my height. 

Dress nice, of course, but to the extent of my discomfort?

I would love to live in fashion week every week of my life, but that isn’t happening anytime soon.

For once I am not talking about physical discomfort. We live in a world with judging eyes everywhere. people who can’t do better, say better or be better always have something to say, no matter how many times we say it doesn’t bother us, we’re human, we have downtimes.

Do I want to look fly all the time, of course, I do, is It possible with my bank account, probably but is that probability on the high side, perhaps not. Walking down a small town with the trendiest look of the century will attract eyes your way, of course good, but also judgemental, I have no time stressing about who’s looking at me. If I have the opportunity to dress how I like, if not, I go for what is comfortable.

How much weight do you I need to lose till I’m happy with the way I look?

Media is finally turning towards the right direction, accepting people for who they are not what they scale says, we’re not quite at perfection yet and we never will be, but we now have midsize role models, something we never had before. It was if you are not stick thin, then you’re fat, no in-between. I am 5”7½ and I weigh 68kg. I carry a lot of weight on my legs and stomach, my arms getting there but just not quite. I am an average eater, I work out occasionally and I am an average sugar and junk food consumption, I eat mostly home-cooked meals, not necessarily a balanced meal, but I know what’s in my food. I consume a lot of water and the occasional soft drink. My proportions once fit into athletic/petite, now I just don’t care enough to check, all I know is one to find clothes that fit me and make me look good.

Do short clothes automatically mean best-looking clothes?

I am about to lose a lot of you but the reason I steer clear from short clothes is because of my religious background. I try not to judge people by my standards because that’s incredibly stupid, but as a tall enough person, having purchased clothing items that have come out a little shorter than I wanted, yes it loos cute, but I cannot move anywhere without being paranoid that it’s ridden up and my underwear is showing. Absolute paranoid stemmed from that once happening.

Short outfits have their merit, they are able to highlight your legs and of course depending on the style have a certain charm, but honestly, If it’s not shorts, it’s too short for me.