I keep many things to myself. I share a lot with people but what they fail to notice is, what is shared are very trivial things. My experiences as a young child had made me this way… I never blame anyone, I just feel a different childhood would produce a different Osi today.

What is my struggle at this very precise moment? I am currently battling the stress of driving test. I have failed 5 times already and the stress is eating me up. The disappointed faces I get when I share the news that I’ve failed another test is heartbreaking to me. The buckets of tears shed to myself, instructor, examiner and friends is soul destroying. I know many will say, im very dramatic when I talk about the pain I go through, but deeply from my heart, I feel incredibly hurt with every fail. The pressure I put on myself is immense and yet I get nothing back. I fall into the terrible habit of comparing myself to my many friends who have all passed first time, who have not experienced a single pain caused by driving and that saddens me that I don’t share their joy in passing.